Like most performers I know, I hold multiple day jobs in order to pay for both living expenses and rhinestones. It’s rare for most people who perform or freelance to be able to afford to make a living off of just performing. Although that is my ultimate goal with the burlesque gods willing, at this point and time in my life, overworked and under paid is a pretty normal circumstance.
But, what doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger, as the overused statement goes. When I was up at Tease-O-Rama I was able to take a workshop by Penny Starr Jr. and she said something that really opened my eyes. We tend to put so much emphasis on what we don’t have and what we need, which really translates into wants, that money becomes something that we chase after without really knowing what it is. Well, Penny told us that you must look at money as a tool before you realize how to use it. After that I realized that having money doesn’t do anything. What I want is to perform and I must use the money I have wisely to make that dream a reality.
This past year was by no means a great year for money, but I feel rich in other ways as cliche as that sounds. I have grown as a performer, had the chance to perform on different stages without my troupe, helped to form a new troupe which is frightening all in its own, and have only developed a richer passion for burlesque. I continue to grow with each performance, and have made new friends along the way. I’m grateful for those that have continued to encourage me and look onto the next year with bigger dreams and anticipation.
With all that in mind, I am very grateful for a day off today to prepare for my New Year’s Eve show in Los Vegas with Miss Dottie DeVille. But since I have the day off, and a Saturday free is a rare commodity, I might just pull an Audrey Hepburn and sleep in a little.
Have a wonderful weekend, and if you happen to be in Vegas catch us at Boomers!