Feisty Thoughts: Practice – Just F***in Do It

I have spent the last several months talking, thinking, and “wanting” to write. I have written down several goals, many of which included writing, but do you know the one thing I haven’t been doing? Writing. Seems a bit counter productive right? Well duh.

Writing is a skill. Burlesque is a skill. Costume making is a skill. And what all three of these things have in common, is that if you don’t practice, you will never excel at whatever skill you are setting out to achieve. I talk about this ALL THE TIME, but for the past few months, I found excuse after excuse to not do the things that I love so much.

But why? Well, its the reasons that all of us give ourselves: “I’m tired”, “I have other commitments”, “I am not feeling inspired”, “I don’t feel good at what I do”, “so and so does this way better than I do so why should I try?” For months I’ve been settling for these excuses as truths all the while finding time to scroll through social media for HOURS, only to compare myself to these idealized images of others that we create online.

This was counterproductive and ultimately landed me in a depression of woe is me, that one mindset that is comfortable and familiar, but absolutely SUCKS! So here I am now, still feeling many of the above sentiments, wondering why anyone would be interested in what I write and who really cares about the opinion of an outspoken performer, but knowing that if I don’t get in the habit of practicing writing, yes even bad writing, then I can never succeed at my goals.

Ultimately, that is a fact that we have to overcome, knowing that everything we do will no have the Midas touch. If you are an artist, you will at some point and time in your life create crappy art, no matter what the medium. You have to set your ego aside and allow for the process to work without a set destination. You have to love the act of creating so much, that you just stop caring if the end product ends up shyt, or at least know that if your first attempt didn’t succeed, you can always go back and adjust. That’s what art is, it’s evolutionary.   We are (or can be) evolutionary.

So if there is a goal you want to reach, you have to just go out and make the time to practice. Even if it is only 10-20 minutes a day. Set up a schedule on your phone, and block out periods of time that is meant just for you. If we can spend an hour or more on social media mindlessly scrolling wondering why we even care in the first place, then we can afford to take a few moments out of your day to work towards a bigger picture. I promise you will feel better and more accomplished. And if you start feeling bad about your starting point, take time to track your progress. Take a picture or video each time your practice then look back at your work to see how far you’ve grown when you start to have moments of self doubt. You will be surprised with the results. So go out, fucking practice, and as I constantly tell myself, Do Better.

Progress

Over the last six months or so, I’ve made strides to improve upon my performance skill set and become a performer who people not only love to watch, but fellow performers look up to and respect. It is my goal to figure out what my place is in this community to help our art form grow. I’ve told you about my quest to BurlyCon, my classes with the lovely Kitten DeVille and Shannon Doah and my constant quest to continue to put myself out there.

I was speaking to a fellow performer, Jacqueline Chaton, and we expressed that the reason why we wish to do more shows is more than just wanting to perform, we want to practice and get more experience onstage. You can practice a thousand times in front of a mirror, but its never the same as finding yourself onstage. For that reason, I may have been burning the candle at both ends, but it feels great!

I was recently given the opportunity to perform in Lady Borgia’s show Shakespeare in the Dark. I took all my notes, all my lessons, and applied them to this performance, and I feel like this was by far my best performance YET! I slowed down, took my time, got in the head of my character and enjoyed myself. The act looked and felt beautiful.

Tomorrow I take off to Boston, where it’s freezing!, and I really hope I can make one hell of an impression! Wish me luck, and I will be sure to post about my traveling diaries!
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